sitting, waiting, wishing

daang schools been takin overrr. seems like all i do is study now. i guess its worth it though, grades are back up nd im feelin accomplishMENT? aha. stilll. hate how everythings has to be hecka organized now. organize friends. organize school. organize sports. nd wen there is time to do sumthn its like uhh wut do i do? hit people up? or use just hav long deserved me time? weather doesnt help much either. has me sleeping always. just wanna go back to the old days once in a while where it was just hangin out eatin all Kevins food, or movie nites on Miggy's roof. haha. like cant even focus rite now. book report -_-. fuck that. i just wanna sleep again. feel hecka unproductive all the time now. feel that way but then i end up just fillin up my schedule with things i HAVE to do. making me hella busy again wer i dont even pause. fuckin energizer bunny. ha. i dont even feel like myself mostly anymore. feel hella selfish since i dont hav time to help anyone out nd wut not. dont like it =/i just wanna take things as they come again. enjoy the simple things.....breaks soon...change of direction?