Mister

not gunna lie, you've been on my mind a lot lately nd idk if it should be that way. fuck as much as i dont wanna think about how much i really do miss you you're always gunna be there. i feel like everything since you has been me experimenting like kraazy. never knowing wut i want anymore. i dont understand either. yea you loved me, got to know me more than anybody has ever tried, but i could only take so much disappointment. you'd probably argue that. too stubborn to buck down, too proud. but freal, that day? you couldnt even say anything to me. you just let me feel it all through silence. like you didnt care. nd now? you dont stop saying how much you love and miss me. gawwd if you could've just told me that wen it ended. would've saved me a lot thought over why i even bothered. would've saved me a lot of dumb feelings. so why all this thought about you now? mayb bcuz i have nothing to distract me, no one?...the distance to you is even greater than bfor now...idk. i think its just that ill always care. BUT its time for a new distraction...